charkins

stressed,annoyed,depressed

2005-08-11T05:58:00.000-07:00

i feel really bad......

stressed,
annoyed,
destroyed
and
depressed

this is the worst day so far for this year.. i fuckin hate this day! one person destroyed it. raaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwrrrrrrrrrrrrr..my mom.. this is the first time I ever said that.. ever.. I would always get irritated with the poeple who complain about their moms.. now.. I am guilty of it... feel like she doesn't appreciate all the thigns I do.. of course comes with it are the responsibilities... and of course the people you meet... she thinks its a burden and a waste of time!!!! not blessings!!!!!!!! what the hell??? i feel super hurt and unloved.. I work my butt of to achieve those things... I feel really jealous.. coz some people.. easily get the attention or appreaciation of their moms.. just a perfect in a quiz they would get something...while i do ssssssooo much things.. and i don't get anything.. just her ranting...*tear*

my tita would always tell me to enjoy my childhood.. and take life step by step.. but my mom simply destroys it.. Im so not enjoying and Im not happy at all.. She opens my eyes to the real world too much.. She makes me think of things or worry about things that a 14 year old should not bother knowing...Well she actually has a point.. but she's wiping out my dreams and my hope about life.. its like she's putting me in a box and brainwashes my mind into think how life is..... but know.. I so do not believe her......

..this is what happened.. in the car... she suddenly complained about how my sister keeps on losing things.. thenit just went on from one topic to another.. while she was freakin mad.. and i was crying.. then when we got home.. there was a party pa.. so i had to face my relatives with puffy red eyes......

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay..tssssssssssssssssssssssssss... i hate it.. i feel so stressed pa w/ school... im so looking forward to the retreat where i can do some soul searching..

i hope things would be better 4me, my family,my class,our country and the world.. okay.. there so many people die na coz of poverty.... haaaaayyy

basta.. napaka opposite sa lahat ng sinabi ko.. but i wish i can just look on the bright side of life.. :D

this is my fave line... it from hitch..

LIFE IS NOT THE AMOUNT OF BREATH YOU TAKE BUT ITS ABOUT THE MOMENTS THAT TAKE YOUR BREATH AWAY.. awwwww

mwah :P

update

2005-07-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

so.. hmmm.. anyway

thursday: found out the varisty results.. yey.. i got in tennis. :D as well as mandi.. *clap clap*, rina got in hardocurt! *clap clap* jo and myky got in soccer *clap clap* elise and myky again got in pep! *clap clap* sasa and silver got in badminton!*clap clap* and julia got in forensics,, debate! haha*clap clap* i'm so proud of my kabarkadas.. :D oh so talented people.. haha

friday: i had my first official training.. then after that i went to isabelle's house to take a bath for Delirium.. then sasa and boo picked us up.. we arrived urda.. then there party till 12.. went home.. myky slept in my house

saturday: luau fellowship.. boringggg.. haha.. we just had "photo sessions" haha.. then we tried planning our fresh night.. haha.. we were joking around lang.. it would be in the sewing room.. since its the right size.. then we already have music which are the sewing machines.. haha.. then lights using the parol projects of the other bacthes. lol then had anticipated mass in AC

sunday: stayed home.. did homework.. and gelo visited.. had sunday dinner with family..the there..

monday: SLA! it was really fun.. great experience plus we got to help and also got to bond with classmates.. :D then had training but it rained.. so conditioning.. then we still had about an hour left... so we were playing in the soccer field.. really fun! haha. then went back to the court..marga found this nasty mag of coach teng, the she started reading this sick article.. haha.. then went home..read someone's blog! shocked. haha.

now im looking for a slogan for my HEADLINE.. waaaahhhh :D

byeeeee :D

note to myself

2005-07-04T04:15:00.000-07:00

a message for myself:

DON'T GEt INTo AnYtHiNg thAt you doN't haVe PASSION for...:D

i have to remember this or else i'll get into a lot of sh*t this year..... waaaaaah

can I handle this?

2005-07-03T03:11:00.000-07:00

there are so many things in my mind right now..and so much "things" to worry about that I feel so stressed out... and I've been crying so much.. but I know I shouldn't give up... these "things" are actually blessings and achievemets.. I should just be happy that I get such oppurtunities.. :D hm... but i feel better now that last night and this morning..

enough drama.. more happy moments..

um. yesterday I finally got to visit my 2nd house again! yey. I so lovee rina's house! i love it even more! haha. she's got so much new things and CLOTHES! it was like heaven.. haha

we were dressing up.. first they dressed me up as i pink slut..pink talaga from head to toe with a pink chair.. hahaha... then me dressed up in boho outdfits... shiyeet.. they were so cute! waaaaaaaah.. then we saw rissa's gala thingy that she used for 1st communion.. and we started dressing up as brides.. haha.. and even got a vase of flowers.. then started taking pics.. haha

then we were making slogans for campaign.. myky's the BRAIN! haha.. mills and i are just the front.. hahaha.. lol..

then i finally got to eat my favorite spaghetti!!!! hahaha... then we heard mass..after the mass.. they all started running to rina's house while shouting pa.. from the chapel(which is just infront of rina's house) since julia got the snail and they were really scared.. hahaha....

after that we had OC marathon.. and read mags.. then ate sloppy joe.. then went home na.. umm.. i got sick at night.. waaah.. and i was crying myself to sleep.. tsktsk

***just i thought? can i handle it?*** i hope so.. i really do.. :(

eat and eat and eat...

2005-06-25T03:30:00.000-07:00

today I played tennis in CSA with mills,bea,andrea,mandi kyna and some dude.. haha

but i was late for like an hour and I still had to pay 300.raar. coach polly's a really good coach no wonder csa players are super duper good... i was late because..long story.. haha. the worst car ride ever...:(

anyways.. training was really fun and coach polly actually fixed my problem in tossing the ball.. im soooooooooooooooooo happy.. i've been trying to fix it for months.. :D i shall play again next week.. :D then mills told bea g. about "RAMON" haha.. she had a funny reaction... :P

then after CSA..bea g brought us to isabelle's place... we had lunch there... yummy fish and squid... :D

then mills,isabelle and I went to glorietta... we didn't watch a movie.. hahaha.. beh mills! :D we went window shopping and i finally got to buy the necklace i always wanted. :D

isa was gonna get ear piercing.. then she got scared! hahahahahaha... so when we got there she was like i'll think about it first..so we went up the escalator then.. when we got up she was like lets go down again.. so we went back to beadshop.. and when we got there.. we were like signing up na and stuff... looking for earrings.. then the dude put the pen mark na.. and was gonna get the thing na.. and she changed her mind.. hahaha... and she said next time nalang..

then after that we ate in sabarro... then julia arrived.. the waiters there are so WEIRD and SCARY... hahaha...

then we ate AGAIN.. in max brenner..and isa's boracay friends met up w/ us.. they said something like they didn't want to study in the city since they're use to the island plus they don't have to use cars when they go to their friends house.. haha.. its the other way for us.. we're so use to the city..

haha.. in short all we did that day is eat.. then i left na... i don't know what they're doing now..lol :P

happiness

2005-06-23T02:42:00.000-07:00

im so happy! haha.

i have no homewrok today and i feel better now than last week.

i'm starting to love my section. 1-1. classes are really fun.

im excited for tryouts! and scared since me sister said there are alot og new people!
im training in CSA on saturday w/ sila mills,mandi,kyna,monique and etc. haha fun. :D

im excited to see rina! i miss her house.. finally. she missed a lot na in school. june 27.

basta im just super happy! :D

sorry

2005-06-19T06:29:00.000-07:00

the post i put before this was really mean...

so i just wanna say sorry to that "PERSON"...

i'm really sorry... i just went over with the thigs i said...

i guess im not use to it

just have to be open with changes...sorry...

and oh yeah.. bea a. kuya lakkee and elise thanks.. :D

change is the only permanent thing in this world..

hate is merely a result of wounded love

crap. stuff. rar

2005-06-17T18:21:00.000-07:00

i hate this!! rar. i hate ......... ......... ........... .........

i don't understand why....you people are so shallow! especially you! yes you!...it hurts for me to say this but its true! and im really mad and hurt........ tsss

you're so feeling..tsss

you're so superficial..tsss

you're so a phony..tsss

you're so complicated..tsss

you're just simply mean... tsss

you're such a user...tsss

you're such a social climber...tsss

you're so selfish and conceited..tsss

you're so snobbish...tsss

you feel so superior..tsss

you're so apathetic..tsss

you're soooo fake! fake! fake!

you're such a liar!!!

a lot of people might think you're all that but actually you're nothing.useless.

i hate you so mucH because i got so hurt.. you may not know but yeah!!!!

hope you know who you are! i hope you change. really.

first day of school

2005-06-14T22:47:00.000-07:00

today was first day of school... waaaaaaahhh.. my kada was like SEPERATED.. hehe

im classmates with myky and mills... :D

im section 1...

so today all we had is ORIENTATION... so much new students... hehe :D

so there... basta... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh

gelo's pics

2005-06-11T06:17:00.001-07:00

PICS of gelo. :D

gelo, lil drummer boy

gelo and I.. labo ng pic... rar..cute ni gelo baby palang marunong na magpacute. haha

SHOE SHOPPING. hehe :D

2005-06-11T05:05:00.000-07:00

so yeah. for the past few days i've been trying to look for the perfect tennis shoes but i can't seem to find one. finally today i found one in adidas galle. yey. just hope that i'll get in the AC hs tennis varsity. my sis will be the capt. hopefully I get in. hehe
i also bought new wedge shoes the other day. hehe. then today I also got 2 new havaianas a pink one and an orange one

today,
-i went to the derma w/ my sis and mom--my sis got allergies of some sort
-then we went to galle to buy my shoes
-then to make "binyag" my tennis shoes i played one game with my sis, i lost 8-6.rar. my service sucks. im getting scared of tryouts.
-then i went home and went online

i am now my bro's "official" personal assistant/tutor. haha. since his school started like may 26 and mine starts at june 15 i help him study. hehe. I was reviewing him for his accounting quiz it was fun all those liabilities,capital and assets thing. I can't believe my bro is actually studying he never studied when he was in highschool. haha. so now he gets highgrades and stuff. when he goes online I type for him while he does his him work. haha. im a good lil sis. maybe too good.

last night was weird. actually this morning. I actually fixed my room 5am. I got so OC. I never ever ever fix my room my sis just sends me out of the room and she does everything since she says when i fix the room it gets worse... hahaha... so how this happened? we(my sis and i) fell asleep in my bro's room since my bro was in a party. then at 4:30am my mom woke us up and told us to go to our room na since my bro will be arriving soon so when i got to the room it was a MESS i tried sleeping but after 5 mins. I stood up and started cleaning a fixng the room. hahahahaha.. weird. then i tried sleeping again but first i watched knock first in ETC. how I wish i get a room make over.

new blog

2005-06-08T18:40:00.000-07:00

I made a new blog since I got so bored na with my old one. finally. haha. actually kuya lakkee made this one for me. thanks so much! okie i have to go now im going to buy new tennis shoes. :D byeeeeeee

EVERYONE's so OLD!!

2005-05-23T00:48:00.000-07:00

haha

first, my bro is 18??? what the hell? haha. he's also in college already(DLSU) I can't believe it. hehe. he still doesn't act so mature and stuff but still. hehe. They already have school.. today's their first day of school. too bad for him..I hope my bro gets a girlfriend already. haha. well he does have a lot of gril friends but no GIRLFRIEND. rar

second, GELO can walk na! without any guide... ang cute... plus he's not masungit anymore..haha. well he's still a baby.. but getting older... waaaah.. still the cutest ever... sad that he didn't visit yesterday

third, my ate's already 17!!! hehe.. she had a birthday party last friday, may 20.. it was fun. her friends are so sweet because they had a surprise for her... they made her HARANA.. they sang her 3 songs.. her fave sweet songs...each day, how deep is your love and kiss me... then they gave her flowers,chocolates and kisses... sweet noh?

fourth, im gonna be in highschool... na.. hehehe...and all of my friends are turning 14 na.. hahaha :D

anyways..

for the past few days... i've been reading books... i've finish 4 na... in 5 days... wahahaha...its a miracle since i don't really read a lot..

also been watching tv... etc most of the time... and watching dvd's of THE OC!! waaah... i watched episode 19-22 of season 1 since i missed those... and its my fave coz that's when seth and summer "worked on the mechanics"

byeeeeeeeeee

i wanna go shopping again... hehe